Wednesday, August 27, 2008
`yest
bawled my eyes out .
and am still bawling .
yest was cuz hubby was mad at me.
i guess he has to .
i was inches away from a car. & he was worried .
`today .
everything was okay till i mention angmohs.
crap with angmohs & hawties .
hubby was turned off .
& he thinks his not good enough .
when he is not .
my hubby is th best lurs !
why must he think that way ?
he has no idea ; but i have never loved anyone as much as i love him.
& no one has ever loved me th way he does.
what nothing compared to my ex ?
does he know how blessed i am that they dumped me ?
i was able to know hubby .
i am able to love hubby .
& i am able to feel so lucky now.
he says he doesnt deserve me .
more like i dont deserve him .
i dont deserve anyone .
im a lousy girlf.
no need to make me feel better .
i know myself well enough.
im selfish .
im stubborn .
i got this attitude where i ust neglect people & take people around me for granted.
arent that more than enough to prove that im lousy ?
hubby wanted some time .
& i understand . but really cant bear it .
we never been like this before .
& i dont know how to overcome this .
all i know now is to sit & bawl . till my eyes are red & sore.
hubby is feeling like his not good enough for me .
WHICH IS SO NOT TRUE .
& all im doing is just sitting here & cry .
what a girlf i am.....
