Thursday, November 6, 2008
im ranting alot . you need not have to read this im feeling like crap .
it just don't make sense & super ilogical (spelling?) !
im forbidden to go for bible study today DD:
she allows me to go tomorrow for movie ,
& she forbids me to go today .
claiming that i go out to often ,
yet its more like she don't want me to go for bible study .
like whats her problem larhs ?
feel so messed & angry .
yeaps . im angry .
so angry that i can break chairs apart .
daddy is already neutral about me going out ,
so whats her problem ?
then i suggested i skip th movie to go for bible study ,
& she was like no ,
you're going to pester me for th movie tomorrow .
you go tomorrow & not today .
i persuaded since last night ,
& she is just so dead against.
i choose not to lie my way out & she strictly forbidded .
i respect her ,
talk to her nicely & reason things ,
& she just said no .
& dragged in so many other things .
like my phone bill .
what has my phone bill got to do with me going out !?
i didn't even ask for money .
i said i was going to take my savings !
all she had to do was allow me to go out for 5 hours .
& she says im wild & often fly out .
im old enough to take care of myself !
what is wrong ?!
i don't go overboard
& reach home early .
(not like i stay out till there are no bus services !)
she just diedie dont allow .
her reasons are not valid !
& she wants me to listen to them !
what is wrong ?
not like im going to slack or do something that will end me up in trouble .
& she is like so dead against .
im making full use of my time ,
& she thinks im wasting it .
like staying at home would be any better ?
im just in my bed using th laptop .
does that sound like a better use of time !?
its useless to carry on persuading .
& its just so maddening .
feel like crap & useless .
like all i know how to do is sit here & cry .
(im surprise no vulgarities flew out !)
signing off
Sara
