Wednesday, March 18, 2009
three chapters & four post in a day. im proud of myself :D
yayness (:
Chapter Three : I got dependent.
I should be one of the dumbest spieces ever . To get involved with a guy I barely know, and to totally hurt you in any way that I had.
Amazing how so many things happened during the Chinese New Year Period , and how no matter
what, you're still involve in all of it.
Dependent . Perhaps that's how I feel towards you, at that point of time. When everyone was away, the first one I thought of, was you. I rushed over to WhiteSand's BurgerKing when I found out that you were there, and I was alone.
We were rather happy, till he walked pass. Afraid that he may be mad or something, I started to get paranoid about what the hell he was thinking. In the end, making a fool of myself in front of you. Probably hurting you a lot too. Do you know, I seriously had no idea what was going on, when I was with him ? It was all a mess. Come and think of it, I don't even wish to think of it.
When I asked you, what kind of person he is, you said you can't judge and it was a controversial question, did I hurt you in anyway ? I knew there were problems , and I chose to fall back on you, knowing that you would always brighten my day.
That night, I asked why you were so nice to me. I'm not sure, but I almost thought you liked me. It was just unlikely for someone to be that sweet and caring. A mixed emotion swept over me, when you told me you treated all your friends likethat. I must say, you're a pretty good actor, if you were even acting . But all I knew at that moment, was that you are one of the best persons I have ever met. You are like, a really understanding best friend, who would never leave me for anything, and I loved how knowing you will never leave my side, cause I was really enjoying times with you.
Our next conversation, was when he and I had broke up. The first one I seeked was you, because I know you would cheer me up somehow. You described the situation to me in layman terms, and I was instantly cheered up soon after. Whatever happened between me and him no longer did matter as much, because I knew I have you, as my all time wonderful bestfriend to fall back on.
I depended on you, being happy that I got to know such a great person like you . You made me smile, when you said you didn't want to see me hurt.
