Long rant.
Friday, October 30, 2009
Honestly, I feel darn sad now. I don't know why. A lot of things running through my head and when you're emotional, you tend to think more.
Its the parting that makes it tough to pull through.
I'll miss Julia like crazy. Michael also plays a very important role. Lionel too. & Then there's ZhiHong.
Like we're all going different ways and obviously meet up after school and stuff. But it'll all be a new thing and it's different. I don't like it. Like I mentioned, I'm one who likes things to remain at status quo, for things to go my way or just stay the same in a happy manner. I don't like steering towards something that makes me feel uneasy.
Then there's Bee. I want to talk to him now. I think right now, he's the only one who can make me like there's something to fall back on. I want tell him everything. Because it's like letting it out and sharing with him, the one person who would really sit there and listen and allowing myself to breathe.
Mom is being an ass about my computer usage and she just came home. Never had the time to sit and talk and I doubt she'll say anything other than calling me to get over it. Which is true, since all I can do, is suck it and deal with it. But not exactly what I want to deal with right now.
I just feel so sad to think that this change will definitely cause a lot of partings and driftings. That's for sure. I don't like it ):
Asked Michael and Lionel if they were going to miss me and they said yes. I demanded a big hug they refused to give. But I just like them so much. It's like they are really awesome people who never fails to make me laugh. Hilarious, ridiculous, whatever.
Then Julia and I are like so chummy all the time. Not being in the same class seems so difficult all of the sudden.
And don't even get me started on the whole "I don't know which weirdo is going to be in my class next year" thing. Hazel, XinLing, Freddy and I are in the same class though (:
Really have to see how it goes.
