STUPID.
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
It's the time of the week where cold sweat breaks out and stress becomes too overpowering.
And having capable friends around you isn't helping, because they are so damn capable and smart and right, you feel like the no-brainer.
And only today, did I found out I mind being a no-brainer. Its fucked up because when you're like better, you suddenly just lost where you're heading and everything starts to fuzz up. The kind of inferiority is new to me, because, frankly, I'm never that smart, BUT I WAS NEVER THIS DUMB.
Being labeled pretty intelligent but effing lazy for 14 years of my life, it's scary to suddenly find myself all the way down there. And I'm like becoming even more hardworking! My goodness.
I don't know, its just, everything doesn't run the way I expect it to anymore. Like, all of the sudden, things change so much and I'm like kena thrown in. I know this sounds like drama all over again; the typical stuff. But I know better; and this time round, this ominous feeling is downright severe; not your atypical kind of problem.
ARH. IT FUCKS SO MUCH BEING THE STATE I'M IN ):
